OMG. . .In So Many Ways

"You don't always get to change the world, but you do get to love it"

Kate Bowler

"You don't get to change what happened to Millie, but you do get to love her"

Me

Connecting the dots. God dots. Millie and me dots.

OMG. . .how does He always know. ? How is it He is teaching me to listen? To connect those sacred dots?

Blood work shows advanced liver disease. Prognoses and treatment unknown until next appointment.

Emotions all over the place. Anger. disbelief. Sadness. More Anger. Why was she so abused? Why had Millie not seen a vet before? Bloodwork taken before? Preventing what lies ahead? Lots more anger.

Then I read a line. Which takes me on a different road.

"You don't always get to change the world, but you do get to love it"

"I can't change what happened to Millie, but I do get to love her"

Millie might live seven months or seven years. Somewhere in between or somewhere more. I can't change that. I can seek answers. Listen to advice from the vet.

Ultimately ,I can't change Millie's past abuse. I can't change her neglect.

But I do get to love her. Make her feel safe. Protected. Cherished.

I can focus on loving Millie. Not my grief.

As the title of Kate Bowler's new book says. I can be Joyful, Anyway

OMG. . . In So many Ways.