You know the show “Unsolved Mysteries”?
OMG. . .kind of drives me crazy. . .In So Many Ways.
I take one hour out of my life watching a story that is never solved.
“If you, or anyone you know, has information about this case, please call ________”
OMG. . .In So Many Ways.
I want an answer. Closure. Resolution. An ending. So I decide to wipe this show off my Netflix list. Puts me in a bad mood. Frustrated mood.
And more and more I am realizing my God relationship is an “Unsolved Mystery. I read books. Listen to podcasts. Pay attention to sermons. I end up with more questions than answers.
It used to be so simple; back in the early years of my journey. Black and white. If I acted a certain way, God would love me. My side was right, the other side most certainly wrong. A question always had an answer.
But now. . .OMG. . .In So Many Ways.
An answer is usually followed by another question. A certainty is followed by a doubt. Things that used to make sense, now do not. But here’s the funny thing, it’s not making me crazy anymore.
I’m beginning to relax into the mystery of God. Where did I get the idea I could ever figure all of this out anyway? I’ve spent decades banging my head against the wall! Hoping all that banging would open the door to the God Mystery.
OMG. . .In So Many Ways.
It feels so much better to stop banging. To stop shouting “Give me the answer!”
To rest in THE MYSTERY.
“This is the ultimate knowledge about God, to know that we do not know.” St. Thomas Aquinas
“If you understand, it is not God you understand.” St. Augustine.
What a relief! OMG. In So Many Ways.
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